Am i crazy?

i think the answer to that may be yes. I honest to god feel like i am going crazy. I feel like the whole world is spinning one direction and i am spinning the other. I feel like some days i dont want to wake up. Scratch that somedays i pray that i wont wake up, so that i can wake up with McKenzie, i have a daughter and a husband to take care of, how irrational is that?!?! But it happens. Many of my days and nights are spent crying myself in and out of conciousness. I am lucky if i even remember what day of the week it is, i no longer have the concept of time, day is night and night is day. Am i going crazy or have i already gone crazy? I feel like i dont have a rational thought left in my head. Somedays i pray to wake up and be pregnant again, and somedays i pray to wake up and be all alone. I feel like i am living under a dark cloud. I swear i have gone crazy.