today i cried

today was what i will consider a "bad day", although i dont really think it was bad, but in terms of crying and McKenzie, it was a bad day. Phillip told me today that he likes to drive up union to work every morning just so that he can blow McKenzie a kiss and tell her he loves her. I cried today, i cried looking at McKenzie's picture hanging on our wall. I cried because she would be almost 3months old, and i remember the things chloe was doing at 3months and how much i am missing out on. I know i am missing out on a lot of things and really it makes my heart ache. Today i cried and really it felt ok to cry.