a very personal blog

i was going to delete my blog but after a lot of thinking have decided to keep it. This is where i write everything that i was thinking raising chloe, being pregnant again and after McKenzie's death. I want to someday be able to look back at all the things i thought and wrote down and see how far i have come.

This has been a very hard year for us to say the least, but i want to come out of it better than i was before and i know i will. Phillip and i are working in our problems and i guess only time will tell what the future holds right?! I know that i went into this marriage "until death do us part" and i still think that way. I dont know where we stand right now and it all makes my head spin thinking about it. I hope to someday get back to where we used to be, but that is going to take a long time and a lot of effort. Trust is something that has to be earned and once its lost it takes a long time to get back.

im done blogging

and as soon as i can figure out how to delete it, it will be gone. thanks to everyone that read it!

pregnancy and infant loss awareness month

October is Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness month. please remember and honor our babies with us by lighting your candle at 7pm, on October 15th for the "wave of light". Light your candle at 7pm (all time zones) and keep lit for AT LEA...ST 1hr, this will create a continuous wave of light across the entire world in honor of our lost babies! please re-post to your friends/family to help spread awareness.

here is a link where more info can be found...

http://october15th.com/