The birth of my two preemies

If this is your first time here, please read McKenzie's and Avery's birth stories!

McKenzie's birth story

Avery's birth story

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

what october looks like for me....

Saturday October 2nd- My cousins baby shower
Sunday October 3rd- H.A.N.D service of remembrance
Monday October 4th- DH's 26th birthday
Thursday October 7th- H.A.N.D meeting/ "baby shower" for a member of H.A.N.D
Saturday October 9th- baby shower for another cousin (the sister of the one having the shower on the 2nd)
Sunday October 10th- My 25th birthday
Monday October 11th- (this is only if i get what i want for my B-day) another 3d/4d ultrasound!
Tuesday October 12th- Doctor appointment/ultrasound!
Saturday October 16th- tupperwear party at my sister's house
Sunday October 17th- *possibly, not confirmed yet* baby shower for Megan
Wednesday-Friday October 27th-29th- *dates not confirmed yet* Spending time away for our anniversary
Sunday October 31st- trick or treating with chloe

Ok now, if you are reading this and you have invite me to something that is not listed above please LET ME KNOW!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

24 weeks picture

24weeks seems like i have come so far, yet i still have 13 weeks to go. I know that 24 weeks is a big milestone. This is now considered "viable" meaning that if something were to happen and she had to be delivered there is a chance she can survive outside the womb. I feel like i can relax a little before i get anxious, and just a few more short weeks until i enter the 3rd trimester.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

23 weeks

* How far along?: 23 weeks
* Total weight gain: down 10lbs still (maintaining my weight now though)
* How big is baby?: the size of a papaya
* Maternity clothes?:all the time
* Stretch marks?: nothing new
* Sleep?: its getting harder since she is moving more and she is up ALL NIGHT
* Best moment this week? hmm, i don't have anything specific
* Movement?: lots and lots of it, she is VERY active
* Food cravings?: nothing really, just cheese
* Labor signs?: nope
* Belly button in or out?: In.
* Sex?: GIRL 
* What I miss: not getting up in the middle of the night to pee
* What I'm looking forward to: hopefully getting another 3d/4d ultrasound
* Milestone: about 1/2way done with the 2nd trimester!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

week 22

* How far along?: 22 weeks
* Total weight gain: down 10lbs still (maintaining my weight now though)
* How big is baby?: the size of a papaya
* Maternity clothes?:all the time
* Stretch marks?: nothing new
* Sleep?: its getting harder since she is moving more
* Best moment this week? having a BPP and getting a really really LONG ultrasound
* Movement?: lots of movement and HARD kicks
* Food cravings?: nothing really
* Labor signs?: nope
* Belly button in or out?: In.
* Sex?: GIRL (they re-confirmed this at the BPP)
* What I miss: not worrying about every little thing
* What I'm looking forward to: hopefully getting another 3d/4d ultrasound
* Milestone: making it WAY past the 1/2way point

Your Baby: Month 5

Watch what you say -- baby is now able to hear outside noise from down in the womb. Studies show that baby finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Nipples are starting to sprout, and that little face is fully formed. And, baby's starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. It shouldn't be hard to figure out when -- just pay attention to those kicks as they start and stop.

22 weeks appointment/update and some pics

Had my 22week appointment today. BP was really good, still no weight gain but no loss so that is good. My doctor did an ultrasound in office but told me we also had to go to the hospital to have an extensive u/s done. Now that i am considered high risk i had to have a better ultrasound to make sure that everything with Avery is looking good, my cervix and my scar plus all of her measurements of course.

So right after we left the doctor's office we went straight to have the u/s done. I now know that i can hold 1.5L of water in my bladder for over 2hrs! LOL. The ladies doing my ultrasound were super nice (one trained and one student). The were taking their measurements and i saw Avery's head and commented on how big her dome is, they laughed and agreed (both my other girls had huge heads too). She wouldn't cooperate to let them get the pics of her heart that she needed so it took well over an hour. Then they let Phillip come in and did the fun part. She is still and most definitely a girl, she has long legs and big feet. She has the same nose as both my girls and her beautiful little heart was beating away!
anyway here are the pics from the hospital u/s...

Avery's profile after she gave the tech a nice right hook!

Avery's profile

she was starting to curl up into a ball

Avery's big giant foot! (it scanned crooked) 

Thursday, September 9, 2010

my oh my how fast the year went by

Phillip and i were talking tonight about how fast the year went. 1year ago (well technically 1 year and 6 days ago) was the night we totaled our truck on the freeway. It doesn't even seem like it has been a year. We were talking about it tonight and remembering what it was like and how fast the whole accident happened. I laughed and told Phillip that it wasn't anything like i expected a car accident that bad to be like. In the movies (i know, so realistic right?!) everyone always screams and cries and we didn't. Our accident wasn't anything like that, it was a very calm and quick experience, the whole thing happened from start to finish in a matter of like 2 minutes and we were stopped on the side of the road. I remember calling my mom as a blubbering mess trying to get out the words that we had been in a bad car accident. I knew that the ambulance was going to take me to the hospital because i was having some serious back and neck pain and that  if i didn't call my mom that she would be upset that i didn't. I remember the total calmness i felt that night knowing that we were going to be OK, i knew that McKenzie was with us and that we needed to be here for Chloe. I really cant believe that it has been a year.
And with the year anniversary of our accident comes the 1st anniversary of attending our H.A.N.D meetings. Starting to attend these meetings has been one of the best experiences of the last year. These ladies "get" me more than anyone (aside from Phillip of course) and they really have come to be some of what i would consider my best friends. They are amazing, caring and understanding women and can always make me laugh when i need it *cough* Candice *cough*. I am so glad that i met them and have them in my life!!

wow i think that is the longest blog that i have actually had time and energy to write in a long time, think its just a coincidence that Chloe is at her Nana's house until Tuesday and now i have the time?!?

Thursday, September 2, 2010

i really just need a hug

for the past month i have been getting more and more emotional about McKenzie and this pregnancy. I cant even describe the amount of guilt i feel just for being happy about Avery. I am awake every night until my body is just so physically tired it literally can't stay awake anymore. I cry and cry about feeling happy when inside i feel so sad. Chloe is so happy about becoming a big sister and she talks to Avery, but i cant help but think about what if McKenzie was here too. I wish Chloe understood what it means that she is already a big sister, but because her sister isnt physically here she doesn't.