i dont know what to do with myself

i find myself wandering around aimlessly about 95% of the time. i wander around with my head in a fog, to where the world is literally spinning. I find that i feel like i am spiraling down a black hole. Yesterday i was in a good mood, a genuinly good mood and i dont know why. It was the first time since the 15th that i have been able to say i was in a good mood. Physically i am healing ok, i find myself doing more and more each day. I still find it hard to pick Chloe up, maybe because i am not supposed to be pickig her up, but i love to give her lovins. emotionally i really dont know where i stand. I cry alot but i think thats normal, i am angry and sad a lot. i guess these days i just really dont know. What i do know is that friday is going to be a hard day for me, i guess it has to get worse befor it can get better.