realizing that i am depressed

the thing that most made me realize that i am depressed and it isnt a phase that i am just going to snap out of (besides all of the awesome reading material from a friend), was when i started having constant thoughts of leaving. Running away and not comming back because about 99% of the time i think that phillip and chloe would be better off if i did. When those thoughts started becoming daily all consuming thought i realized that isnt a rational way of thinking and there is really something wrong. I know i need help and i thank everyone who is helping me along the way!