i give up

i hate my life. blood presssure is 153/89. i am going through all this damn suffering and i dont even get to hold my baby because of it. life isnt fair and i hate, i fucking give up, i quit, i have been defeated. i will never give up on chloe or dh, but i really do give up on my body. My body continues to fail me and my family every single day. My body failed my daughter and now this.